For 26 years I thought I was a human. Two years later, I still believe I’m a human, but with a deeper understanding of what I am. In a society of ignorance for self understanding, I grew up hearing what the society told me I am, what I can do and what I cannot do. But I was never happy with the ways of the society, I was always angry at it. Hence I grew up to be an angry young man, and that was the problem. But in a way, that was also the solution to the problems I was facing.

One day I decided to start meditation to get my anger under my control, but little did I know I would be able to control a lot more than my anger at that time. I started practicing meditation and started doing research on subconscious-mind and psychology. These two were the only words I could think up at that time, as third eye, chakras and God were just mere fantasy to me. I really wanted to get my anger under control so I was passionate about meditation and and the information related to it. But no mater where I looked, the preachers always referred some supernatural elements along with meditation. But I was not looking for it, I just wanted my anger under control, until I experienced it for myself.

Every evening, I did my research and one fine evening, in the middle of my research I felt a huge surge of electricity passing through my body, originating from the top of my head down to my toes. I ignored it once, but the electricity just kept on appearing inside my head, inside my brain. I thought it was my neurons firing because of the extra effort I did on reading and research and not so long after the experiences started happening, while doing meditation, I felt it. A sensation on my forehead!

One of the major benefits of meditation is that it increases your awareness, and what I was experiencing was natural to any humans, but I was not aware about such an experience within my body. The sensation on my forehead felt calm and peaceful, like I was in nirvana, and while drifting in it, I recollected all the information about Third eye, humans being an energy being and God. It was a moment of realization that everything I was not looking for, is in fact everything that I am. I was no longer normal, I was a confused human with supernatural experiences. I started observing more of the sensations and started recollecting memories of it since childhood, ignoring such sensation thinking its some internal pain or process happening.

I started reading more about such things and soon, I was influencing the reality around me. Anything which I started thinking came into existence, that’s when I realized the power of manifestation within me. Wait, if I can manifest anything I want, am I a human? Definitely not!

I realized I was in fact an energy being, materialized in this three dimensional reality. From a 3-D being I became a 6-D being, then to a 9-D being, and one day I realized I was God, one among the self proclaimed God’s. But that’s insane, how can I be God? God is the creator of everything, so I limited my perspective to be an energy being. And the cycle kept on continuing, I kept on realizing the same stages over and over again, each time with a deeper understanding. I was focusing on myself, and one day “I” disappeared. The ego, “I” disappeared. And everything automatically started to be put in place. I am not the ego, the thoughts, the memories, or the character. I am an Eye, observing. I am… you cannot even imagine!

“Who Am I? I am everything which you cannot think of. I am the music which disrupts the flow. Some call me the Destroyer, some may call me the Devil or a black magician. I am who I am, the question is, do you know who you are? Shivoham and Beyond!” ~ Syed Shah